I am only now connecting the dots, 16 years later, between my Women's Studies and Art major in college. I attended UCSC from 1993-1995 as a "Re-Entry" student which means, "old lady over 25 or some such thing"...I was married, and had a son Alex, when I finally grasped higher education. I had no idea what to major in prior to transferring to UCSC, I just wanted a Bachelor's Degree. But you have to major in SOMETHING so I figured I would major in ART, and then I took a Women's Studies class, just before I transferred and I dug it so I thought, "maybe I can do both?" and I did. I was a double major and I felt like I was clever to get two degrees for the price of one...always a schemer, always looking to get the most for my money...haha. It was a perfect marriage. I made Art and learned about women, and loved the contrast and connection between the two subjects. Then I graduated. 32 years old and I got my degree. I was proud. It was hard. Now what...what the heck do you do with a Women's Studies/Art degree? I had another baby...and went back into full time motherhood. Ironic. And this was my story for 13 more years....
I quit art, never really thinking I was good enough to call myself an "ARTIST", even with an Art degree, and I didn't know what the heck to do with my Women's Studies teachings....become a Women's Lib leader? I worked odd jobs every now and then to get a fix for empowering myself, only to eventually quit after a year because it wasn't really "IT". I even went back to school and got an Interior Designer certificate from Las Positas college, thinking this was really going to be "IT". But it wasn't. I liked rearranging furniture and I loved to make things look pretty but I couldn't see myself working at a fancy Interior Designer showroom and ordering drapes, couches and rugs for fancy clients. I could see myself as the "Design on a Dime" type of designer but I never really got it off the ground. I am great at school, and then not so great at putting my learning into a "career". But wait, there is a happy ending!!!
I finally turned a corner in 2009 when I recommitted myself to art. I read the "Artist Way" and it lovingly guided me to my passion-Art. Oh yeah. I liked art once. I just never thought I was good....enough....so I decided to try it again. And that lead me to where I am now.
On a whim I looked into art studios and I found Benicia, completely off the radar and yet perfect for me. Affordable and funky=perfect. I started painting again. I was happy. I had a place to play and create. I made it cute. Adorable. I had a bed, a record player and an easel. I was in heaven. Then I had a good idea..."I can make it a shop AND a studio", and sell things and make enough money to pay the rent. So I opened Hip Chick Designs officially in January 2010. And I have been doing it for a year and a bit and I only recently realized this huge realization. "THIS IS WHAT A WOMEN'S STUDIES/ART MAJOR DOES FOR HER CAREER" She has a shop and art studio that facilitates women connecting through creative endeavors. Only 2 months ago we had our first art class at the shop and it was such a smash hit that it launched subsequent classes from then on. The energy of many women making art together is palpable and it validates my usefulness.
I facilitate women connecting through art in my space. WOW. Right on. This makes me feel truly valuable. I didn't even plan this all out. It is leading me, and I am along for the ride. I just made a commitment to do art, and see what happens. I have also made art friends online that are influencing the direction of my art immensely. My last post was all about my breakthrough in art thanks to the brave girls classes empowering me to be kinder to myself. Art therapy. As I was doing my 'homework' and making art that says "you are enough" I internalized it and realized we all need this validation. Women are too hard on ourselves. We expect soooo much of ourselves and we give ourselves no credit. That is sad, that is silly, that is not what I want for the women's movement. I want to empower women to live their dreams, to embrace their passions and to love themselves. This is the point. This is the women's movement that matters to me. And in my small way I am contributing to it. By making art that speaks to women, by hosting women gathering together to make something beautiful, by living my dream, and by showing my daughter that when you do what you love, success follows. It's scary at times because I am making this up as I go along, but it's also really exciting. I have no idea where this ride ends, and the twists and turns are always there, but I know it's the right path, the one I was looking for all along. It just took awhile to find it. I hope you find yours, sometimes it takes a lot of digging, and trying different things to figure it out. Just don't give up, because if you are trying then you will get there. "Don't leave before the miracle happens."
I would love to hear if you are living your dreams and how you got there. I am inspired by others stories and I love the support women give each other. I thank you for your support and for taking time to care about mine. We need each other. Alone I am small, together we are mighty.
oh Oh OH!!! You have hit my passion with your heart today! I too have such a desire to share Art with other women...to provide the opportunity for them to discover on their own and together the creativity within. We are presently looking for a place of retreat just for this very purpose! May our passions continue to grow, nurture and collide as they have today! My best wishes to you... We are one! Robin
ReplyDeleteFabulous Post!!! I love it Carrie. And I agree, we should all support each other. Art is a gift and a blessing that we can share. Life is good Hip Chick! :-))
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post Carrie. I am neither a woman or an Artist, however you struck a nerve with me by having the courage to follow your dream and passion. I am stuck in a job I do not like and I'm trying to find the courage to say screw it, go follow your passion and see where it leads you. You inspire me!
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ReplyDeleteYou have such a wonderful way with words...You are very inspiring....I love your spirit...You are creative..fun..funky...unique...quirky..and I LOVE that....I love that you found your path..That you kept searching until you found what you are meant to do....I have a dream of owning a little craft store/coffee house/hang out for women...I have it all in my head.....Tons of art work...collages...maybe even some graffiti on the walls.......I would love to offer classes and just build a little crafty community....like you are doing...I love your vision..Your store sounds amazing....I am so inspired by you....I want to go find a little shop to rent or buy......hahaha.....Keep up the amazing work...You are a true inspiration..........
I just checked out your stores website....It ROCKS..I love Bob Marley...lol......I absolutely LOVE your style......Your store is absolutely adorable......It is spot on.......The tutus are epic...Love them.....
ReplyDeleteHey Carrie...I know we would be friends too if we lived closer...We can still be online buds...lol.....I dont think we are facebook friends....We definitely need to be though......I am meeting the COOLEST women too through online classes..It is so great to meet women who I have things in common with.....and connect with...It is crazy that I feel closer to the women I have met through brave girls and online classes than the women I see everyday....I have this feeling that you and I would have a blast together......We have a lot of similarities.....It is awesome...You are so cool...I love your free spirit..It is infectious......It would rock if we could meet someday.....I would love to visit your shop....A couple of years ago I was thinking about opening a shop..I spoke to a couple of women who had shops and they talked me out of it.....They told me that it is not worth it and that basically I would fail.....It wasnt the right time in my life to open one but I am really starting to consider opening a shop soon....We are relocating over the summer so I be dealing with that....My youngest will be starting kindergarten in the fall so after we are settled..this mught be the time to reconsider......It would be a dream come true.....Oh, I ordered The Artists Way....I read about it in your post....I cant wait to read it......Are you on the brave girls facebook page...I can friend you there?
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh.. carrie... u are doing what I wanna do one day.. hv a thriving online business as well as a storefront and studio.. aaaah.. we are kindred spirits.. I hv the same dream.. to hv my own store/art studio where I sell vintage and handmade items, supporting fellow artists.. U are so inspiring! Let's talk! hugs xo bonitarose
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Carrie for your kind words on my blog.....You are the bomb-diggity...haha..It was awesome chatting with you today..We will definitely have to do that again very soon....Oh, I bought a super duper cute hate today......lol...........now I just need a tutu to go with it............
ReplyDeleteOh, I forgot...Your support means a lot to me..I am not used to people, especially women supporting me...It is really nice....Thank you for that........
ReplyDeleteHey Bestie...lol.....I definitely think you are right with regard to my weight....I do still see myself as overweight..even though I know I am not....My friend, Jen, is worried...she thinks I am obsessing and I will never be happy with the way I look.....This raw detox diet is mainly for health reasons....I have alot of stomach and digestive issues.....so that really is my main goal....I am literally full of crap...hahaha......Brave Girls is helping me with the whole self image thing....I am learning and starting to believe that I look good and I am not overweight.....It is so hard...having been mocked and made fun of about my weight and the way I dress and the way I look....for so many years.......but I am getting there.........I am starting to believe....and I am finally starting to NOT CARE what people think......lol.......Oh, my hat ROCKS......I bought a cowgirl hat and it has bright blue on it so I can wear it with my bad-ass TUTU.....wooohoooo...I cant wait.....I am going to look FABULOUS...hahaha....Maybe I will wear my polka dot rain boots with it too....hahaha.....AWESOME.............
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ReplyDeleteYOU are a Sunshine☼! keep up your Powerful L♡ve for Art & Women,,true to You..and beautiful for All.